dashing in the dark

I found this in 2022 while switching computers. My intuition told me to search the words ”narcissist” and “narcissistic,” and this message from 2015 happened to come up.

Although I was in shock reading the distasteful words this individual wrote about me, it gave me more relief than hurt, as it confirmed my intuition.

It confirmed that I indeed was being gaslighted and played in my face for so many years. It confirmed that I was bent out of shape because my body was alarming me. It confirmed that I wasn’t crazy.

I found a very kind letter this individual had written me around the same time, saying, “missed your beautiful face and energy“. This confirmed the playing in my face wasn’t exaggerated.

But how can you prove it when someone is loved by many and tells you they love you to your face?

Time will tell.

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If I’m the poisonous narcissist with muddy energy after all, why do you tap into and bask in my energy every night while I’m sleeping?

It was always just a narcissistic smear campaign, running since the 2010s.